Blog 7: My Identity Kit

I used to hate talking to new people. Because of that, my first two years of high school were pretty rough. I was suddenly at new school full of people I didn't know and I sure in hell wasn't trying to go out of my way to meet new people. I was very reserved and kinda just kept to the small group of friend I did have and myself. 

But one day I decided I wanted more. I pushed myself to go out of my comfort zone and found a new group of people to be around through some mutual friends. Everything was great and I finally started to open up and then I had to leave that group of friends when we all went off to different colleges.

And then it seemed I was back where I started. That timid kid that always kept to himself. But fortunately living in the dorms my freshman year forced me once again to step out of that comfort zone and talk to people. It was hard at first but eventually I finally felt comfortable again talking with people and being in new social situations. 

I even had built up my confidence so much that I got a job on campus. When I applied I had no idea customer service was going to be so highly stressed. Dealing with strangers in a professional manner at work was a whole new level of social interactions that I was not ready for. Luckily, when I suck it up and toss myself into those situations I actually aren't that awkward as I think I am.

Its crazy writing this and seeing how far I have come as a person. I feel super comfortable in social situations but still have times where I feel a little uncomfortable and try to work on it. I have had new people that I have met tell me that they think I am a really social and talkative person which is crazy to me because I know how hard it used to be for me just a few years ago. Just never know whats gonna come out when you fake it well enough